I’m on a journey… This journey began years ago, as I began to sincerely pray the prayer of the church in Acts chapter 4 – “…and grant to your servants that with all boldness they may speak your word, by stretching out your hand to heal, and that signs and wonders may be done through the name of your holy servant Jesus.” Acts 4:29-30 (NKJV)
I’m compelled by that request “grant boldness – by stretching forth your hand to heal…”. For the past 2-3 years, I’ve been asking God for this miraculous demonstration of healing in our lives, in our church – so that we will have a greater boldness to speak the gospel of His Salvation.
Now (as I probably could have expected) this journey has become very personal, and I’m praying with renewed focus and vigor… After weeks of testing, my baby girl has just been diagnosed with a very rare blood disorder called histiocytosis. It is so rare (affecting only 1 in 200,000 children born in the US) that there are no government-supported research programs.
And I find myself at somewhat of a crossroads. I can choose to become an expert in histiocytosis, discovering everything that I can about it so that I can understand how to fight it, treat it, live with it. Or, I can instead set out to discover everything I can about divine healing – because I simply don’t believe that God wants Charlie Grace to live with histiocytosis, even if it is “in remission”.
Are these mutually exclusive paths? I doubt it… But for now at least, I find that the medical web sites hold very little interest for me, and I listen to the doctors’ words with a certain amount of immunity. Denial? I don’t think so. I hear what they are saying – but there is the question that simply resounds over and over in my spirit: “Whose report will I believe?”
And so – while I tentatively allow doctors to begin a course of treatment – I’m making some calls to Divine Customer Service in an attempt to discover what I see as a disparity between my Contract (the Bible) and my experience… I’m convinced that is it not a weakness in the Divine Product – I’m just missing something in the Directions! If I’m going to seek expertise in any area, the focus of my research will be – How do we implement the Covenant Promises in our lives?
But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5 (NKJV)
Please join me in my journey… Let’s become experts in speaking to the mountains, and casting them into the sea – instead of becoming experts in navigating mountainous terrain. And thanks for praying for us…